Okay sorry but I need some ranting to easy my heart... thoose who dont like it can go somehwere else.

I'm sick, I can barely breath, My nose is so bad that I get nosebleed everyday and I spit blood all day long... On the 30th I'm going to a doctor to fix it (I hope...)

My drawing is low... I barelt draw at all right now, 2 reason, I barely got time and I've gotten some comments nowdays that have brought me down...
Comments like "Cant you draw anything normal?"
It brings me down since the things I draw is normal for me, it's a way to express myself...
I've been drawing some portaits of dogs ('ve gotten a opirtunity to draw for a company)
When I show it to others they say "I knew you could draw normal things (the normal word again...) But it needs shading there, fixing there..." and so on...
I don say no to crit but... yeah.. in my already brought down mood it's just brings me down futher.
I'm having major art block right now... I need something else to do then try to press myself to draw somehing because I cant express myself at all right now

Another thing that is nagging on me is how my grandmother is... All I've heard is that she survived. But I dont know anything else... Did she get the present I wanted to give to her?
If so did she even like it...??

My body is in bad shape... I cant sleep, Legs hurt, back is shit and I find bruises and black areas everywhere on my body, and I dont know where I got them.
Maybe I should seek a doctor but... I dont have time, have to work.

One thinh is really bothering my heart right now and is the reason why I'm still up at almoast 2 o clock...
Well, me and some other people has gotten on the wrong track or something... *sigh*

Seems like no sleep this night eather